Long time no post. Really, I had entirely forgotten about LJ until a post i got. So.. I thought I would log on an read up on my friends. :) So yea... :)
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Reesa's Journal
29th December, 2010. 5:33 pm. Wow - hello all Long time no post. Really, I had entirely forgotten about LJ until a post i got. So.. I thought I would log on an read up on my friends. :) So yea... :)
17th February, 2009. 9:30 am. Walk of Shame Decided - when one has to do the walk of shame - one should have *at least* had good reason to do so - instead of their roomie accedntly locking them out of the house...
8th February, 2009. 12:26 am. Pretentiousness So, for those who don't know, my roomie here in VA is an undergrad. And sometimes, when i listen to her and her friends, I can't help but think how very different we are. For instance, this evening, when i came home from a play, she was sitting on the front porch, with her boyfriend, her two best friends, and their boyfriends. So, here's what you have to know about Staunton. Mary Baldwin is an all girls school, meaning that the boys don't live here. SO anyway, the girls and boys are sitting on our front porch, drinking wine, smoking cigs, and just generally being a typical college students. Except then I realized, (and this isn't a judgement call one way or the other, it just is a statement of fact) that when my friends and I did that sort of think, we smoked out cigerettes, thinking we looked elegent, and spoke of theatre and art and what plays we wanted to do, or were working on, or had just seen. But the point was, it was always about the art. (I think that's one of the reasons why i'm so miserable here. Because it's not about the art anymore.) my roomie and her friends are all about thier other half. What I mean by that is that they wanted to get together tonight bc everyone is in town and they wanted to play at being adult couples for a night. so i got to thinking, how much it reveals about a person to know what their pretensiouess was when they were young, or still do, whatever. Do there's my question - what was your prention? and how do you think that represnts you know?
16th December, 2008. 10:56 pm. My B-day!!! Ok, for the like 3 of you that aren't on another socail networking tool of mine... My B-day is Dec 22, and I'm celebrating at The Harp, in Houston - on Richmond at Woodhead. from 9p-2a. If you live in Houston, you should come - cause I say so, and it will be my b-day :) love, me
10th December, 2008. 12:40 am. go here for some yummies!!! feel free to pass it on! http://4garlic.com/index.html
1st December, 2008. 10:47 pm. Life descions, mulled wine, peace and freedom So yesterday I spent a cold, rainy, lazy afternoon under a fuzzy santa blanket and drinking mulled wine while doing some pretty serious thinking and talking with a good friend. I was *supposed* to be writing a letter of intenet to get into the MFA part of the program I'm currently attending.
Instead, I talked it out, and I'm not going back next year. I'm moving to New York City this summer. I know, it's crazy. I get that - but I also get that it's what I need to do for myself. I feel very stalled here - in most, if not all aspects of my life. I've directed one full length show this year, and one one-act this summer... anyone who's known me for more than a year wanna tell me when the last year i had that was *that* slow was? I can't really get the number of TPR students I need to get ahead on my bills, it's just to slow down here. I miss towns that don't close at 8p. Let's not even go into my love life... or rather, some of the rather poor descions I have made in the last year, descions of what I thought was ok then. The thing is, the truth is, I don't think I even knew how much of myself I had lost until this week. And now I've found myself again, and I remember the power of theatre, and the passion and the fire that makes me love it and crave it and yearn for it and not feel complete without it. And I've made this crazy descions, and I feel lighter, and happy, and more like myself than I have in I dont' know how long. I'm talking like myself and thinking like myself, and being honest with myself and others like myself. One of my ex's with whom I am still friends once told me that the reason he could still be friends with me was bc I told him the truth, always. And somewhere in the last little while, i settled and started accepting things that the girl that I actually am, the one who really knows herself, would never have settled for - and i've stopped settling. And that starts with NYC. See, I was always a little afraid to go there, bc I was afraid I would love it too much. And I was right. I love the realtiy of it. The feel of the cemenet block after block. The vitality of millions of ppl living their lives. And I love the art. Part of the reason I could make this descion was a very nice man who sold me some earrings in Bryant Park. He was running my card (before it was stolen ;) ) and making small talk with me and Joe and asked us what we did. I told him I was a director and his first question was "Film or theatre?" I know this sounds crazy, but it was like I let out a breath I hadn't even known I was holding. It was the first time, outside of the small theatre community in Houston, that I hadn't had to explain that I don't want to do film or tv - that there was a difference - and what my job actually was. And something in that moment felt like coming home. And the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I couldn't write my personal statement, I couldn't interview for my MFA bc I don't want to know. I want to go and live my life and fly or fail or whatever I'm gonna do, but I want to do it. I want to try. No, I HAVE to try. I found my drive again this week - the drive that I used to see so clearly, the one that made my mom say "I always knew I would lose you to theatre, I just wish it wasn't so far away". I have to go, and I have to this summer, because I think my soul is dying here. I started this endevor because I thougth I loved school - here's what's I've learned: I don't love school - I love the work. I love the hands down nitty gritty get in and make descions and work with ppl work - make a choice, raise the stakes, take a chance, if you're gonna fail - fail big work. I want that back. I learned that getting that back is way more important to me than some letters behind my name ever would or could be. I learned that if i go back to school, it will be on my terms, and not anyone elses. No more settling. No more running. I sat in the Eugene O'Neill Theatre, and watched a musical that is a very real reason I was even able to make it out of bed a few years ago - a musical about taking a stand, changing the world and following your heart. I'm making my stand, here, now. I'm moving. I"m chaing my world and following my heart. I"m following my siren's song into the great unknown and I couldn't be happier. So, this also means that I'm gonna need contacts when I get there... who's in?
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26th November, 2008. 6:00 pm. New York Ate My Cell ok, it didn't - really the cell ate my cell, but this way i get to accomplis 2 things at once 1) I need your digits 2) I'm in NY for turkey day :D so serisouly - cough 'em up. Comments screened for this one :) love you!@!!!
27th October, 2008. 3:49 pm. of course i'm pink :)
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